To My Knees

Lately, my head has been spinning a million miles per hour. Countless thoughts run through my mind and I can't seem to keep them there. You can ask my-post it note- covered wall, reminding me of things that have to be done and taken care of.  With the stress of a new job, indecision about my career choice, and all those lovely elements of adulthood, I'm feeling a hundred years old and keep checking for gray hairs.

Seeing my friends leave on missions and getting married, it makes me feel like I'm headed no where and stuck going in circles. If there's one thing I hate, it's indecision and not knowing what the plan is.
Finally the indescribable weight of it all has been pushing on me so much, that it's forced me to my knees.

But what I realized today, that's where I should of been all along. I was foolish to think that I could handle the stress and worries of life alone.  I am constantly reminded of a poem I heard years ago and through this poem I am retaught that I am never alone and through these trials, I grow stronger and am lifted up through the love and light of christ.

The Footprints Prayer

One night I had a dream...

I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord, and Across the sky flashed scenes from my life. For each scene I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand; One belonged to me, and the other to the Lord. When the last scene of my life flashed before us, I looked back at the footprints in the sand. I noticed that many times along the path of my life, There was only one set of footprints.

I also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in my life This really bothered me, and I questioned the Lord about it. "Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you, You would walk with me all the way; But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, There is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why in times when I needed you the most, you should leave me.

The Lord replied, "My precious, precious child. I love you, and I would never, never leave you during your times of trial and suffering. When you saw only one set of footprints, It was then that I carried you.